April 2012
4 posts
Stop trying to be my best friend. Please stop.
Cryptic asshole. You don’t make sense at all. Why do you expect me to understand or respect anything you say?
I’m so stupid to have even got into this mess.
Fuck.
That sentence literally ripped everything I knew and loved and chucked it garbage truck.
“I like you as a friend, I like us. I still love you, but not in the same way as before. And occasionally you can be a tad frustrating”
Well. I’m frustrating? Can we turn that frustration around and use it to make you fall in love with me again?
As far as I know you are a liar. You said...
March 2012
8 posts
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Just remembered that night at your house.
We had sat and watched a couple of films. I liked watching films with you because we could happily sit in silence and I thought that was nice. I was normally reluctant to curl up with you…not sure why…but you would somehow manage to scoop me up so that my head was on you chest and you were stroking my hair. The film stopped and I...
I feel really guilty for what I have done.
I lost something so important to him and it’s eating me alive. He told me not to lose it jokingly then told me he trusted me with it. I managed to lose it within one hour of getting it.
I care so much what he thinks. It’s impossible. We are now just getting back to our best friend habits and I have fucking ruined it. It’s unreal how...
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So fucking lonely.
I like to be alone. I like to be alone in my room studying or reading. I also like to watch films alone.
But everything is quiet. I think I need somebody who can take everything that is inside my head and help me understand it? Or even attempt to?
If Oliver was closer I would talk to him more but I don’t like to worry him too much. He’s lovely and I...
Sometimes.
I just want to sing and that is all. But then I think how stupid I am and carry on studying.
December 2011
1 post
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